Thursday, June 16, 2005

"My Brother Sarah"

My sister sent me this email today:

I was just searching for songs from one of my favourite bands (Ocean Colour Scene) I found that they have a song called "My Brother Sarah". I haven't heard it but I just thought that was funny. :-)

Jenn

I decided to look up the lyrics, here they are:



My brother Sarah
Doesn't know what clothes to wear
It's a dilemma
To get the stuff to match your hair

But mother and father
Sister and brother
Say they just don't know

My brother Sarah
Really wish you understood
Why he's got to show it
For it to be any damn good

But mother and father
Sister and brother
Say they just don't know

My brother lies awake at night
Wishing this world could just be right

But mother and father
Sister and brother
You and all the others
Say you just don't know

I was getting used to things by the time I was out of highschool, but it is true, for about 12 years or so I *would* lay awake every night wishing the world could be right.

By the way, there is the one part of the song that says:
My brother Sarah
Really wish you understood
Why he's got to show it
For it to be any damn good

The reason we have to show it probably does seem like a contradiction. I mean every transgender would argue that your gender resides in your head right? So I know people wonder why we can't just accept we are female mentally and spare everyone from seeing us dress female as well. I imagine a lot of people think we are putting on a show, that it is some grab for attention. I am terrified that some people think that we are just guys who like to wear fake breasts and makeup to flaunt an alternative sexuality, but that is not the case at all. The reason is we want to live in the female role. If people see a female image then they behave differently toward us. The behaviours we exhibit also become acceptable if we are presenting ourselves as female. It has nothing to do with the clothes, and everything to do with the image we present. We've "got to show it" because for us to fit into the female role in society is like trying to fit a square peg in a round hole and so we will do all the smoothing out, sanding down, and polishing we can until hopefully we find our way in.

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